Work sucks, i need to go back to school, this time off before college is turning into a disaster. Sadly, i seem to be unable to unearth the determination to get off my fat ass and actually do something to further myself.
Oft i ponder of what will i do with my life. Beyond the parties and alcohol and wild nights with people i cannot remeber and will remain forever namless, just another patch of fog in the nights, i wonder if i can make it somewhere, somehow, or even if im mentally and emotionally capible of returning to school. Has this life ive lived for almost a year grown on me too much, or will i be able to fit back in to the educational infrstucture? Hell i cant even remever 1/2 of what i learned in highschool. Will i be able to survive? Too many questions without enough answers.
To play it soundly surely safe, or cast off as a child of chance?
To clearly look before i leap, or ask Fate for a risky dance?
Two roads beyond this path i tread, one so dreary, broad and wide,
but to the other i look ahead, the one whom in the shadows hide.
How could one, such as i, ever take the reigns
and cast the die, shifting into a differnt lane.
Should i stay in the realms of what i know, or shall i sail uncharted shores?
To take the high road, or the low, to be content, or to want more?
The risks are weighed, the prize is draped in purple, royal
The bricks are laid, but is it worth the time and toil
Not to forget the longest drop, and sudden pains should failure show
if life brings all these dreams to nought, like scattered chaff the wind does blow
What is wrong, or is wrong right?
to sing the same old song, or shall i a newer candle light?
Can it hide and banish fear, or will it from the shadows crawl?
Shall i wait another year, or shall i leap into the fall?
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